February 9, 2016

Dear Nugget,

Well, today we made the official announcement to the world about you! This whole having a baby in the land of social media is totally stressful! For some reason I was so nervous to hit that little blue Post button! Let me talk through some of the reasons why:

1. Even though I've seen you on the ultrasound, heard your little heartbeat and definitely feel you growing inside of me, it all still feels a little surreal! So...telling all of Facebook-land was kind of like admitting that this is really happening!

2. Although I like to think that most of the people that I'm friends with on Facebook are courteous individuals, a little part of me was afraid there'd be some comments that would hurt my over-emotional feelers. "Aren't you kind of old?" and "She'll be the same age as my grandchild!" and "Last time I saw you I thought maybe you were pregnant!" are not the kind of comments that this mama can handle at this point. Luckily, I felt nothing but love!

3. Your mom is somewhat of an introvert. So, super public attention getting posts make me nervous. Like I'm-about-to-speak-in-front-of-all-of-these-people-while-standing-there-naked nervous. I literally broke out into a sweat that lasted for about 20 minutes AFTER I posted and didn't stop shaking for about an hour. Naturally, one would ask "Why the hell did you do it then?" Well, because I'm super excited and I do want everyone to know. I just don't want to be the one to tell them!

4. I know you're going to be just fine. I know that you're healthy and exactly where you're supposed to be. I know that the chances of something going wrong are extremely low. But, I also know that lots of mamas know those same things and their stories don't have a happy ending. That being said, please make sure the next sweat inducing announcement that I have to make is that my healthy baby girl has arrived. Kay?

As stressful as it was, I have to tell you that you already have a HUGE fan club! Lots of people are super excited to meet you and so excited for our little family to grow. I am feeling like the luckiest girl in the world tonight. I have the most amazing husband who is going to be such an amazing dad to you. I have the most tenderhearted, caring 11 year old on the planet who is ready to love you with everything that she's got. I have a little beautiful life that's the size of a lemon growing inside of me. AND...I have a GIANT support system that will help me every step of the way.

I. Am. Blessed.

Love,
Mom