January 12, 2016

Dear Nugget,

So, I get asked how I'm feeling a lot. And, my answer is always "Fiiiiiiiiine." But you know what, I don't really feel fine. I feel like I've been hungover for the last three weeks!

• I'm a little bit nauseous pretty much all the time. 
• I'm so tired that I think I could lay down and take a nap at any point. 
• I want to eat everything. All the time. And I never feel not hungry. 
• Oh, but then I eat too much and I feel like I REALLY want to barf and have acid reflux. 
• All I want to do is put on yoga pants and snuggle on the couch and binge watch Netflix. 

Yep...I'm pretty much hungover all the time, but don't get the pleasure of reliving the hilarious oh-my-hell-I-forgot-that-part-look-at-THIS-picture moments with the girls. But, unlike the lies that I tell myself the morning after every time I drink too much, I can honestly say that after you, I'm never doing this again. You, my dear, will be enough.

By the way, your sister is going to FREAK OUT when she finds out about you! We love the show Rehab Addict (someday when I'm redecorating your room for the 400th time you'll understand this). Anyway, we were catching up on episodes tonight and at the very end of the last one, Nicole Curtis tells us to stay tuned for the next episode, where she will announce that she's adding to her family. Then you see a shot of a big pregnant belly and your sister FREAKED! "Oh my gosh! She's pregnant???? You have to find the next episode! We have to find out more! Oh my gosh!" She was so excited for Nicole...I cannot wait to tell her about you!

Love,
Mom

February 9, 2016

Dear Nugget,

Well, today we made the official announcement to the world about you! This whole having a baby in the land of social media is totally stressful! For some reason I was so nervous to hit that little blue Post button! Let me talk through some of the reasons why:

1. Even though I've seen you on the ultrasound, heard your little heartbeat and definitely feel you growing inside of me, it all still feels a little surreal! So...telling all of Facebook-land was kind of like admitting that this is really happening!

2. Although I like to think that most of the people that I'm friends with on Facebook are courteous individuals, a little part of me was afraid there'd be some comments that would hurt my over-emotional feelers. "Aren't you kind of old?" and "She'll be the same age as my grandchild!" and "Last time I saw you I thought maybe you were pregnant!" are not the kind of comments that this mama can handle at this point. Luckily, I felt nothing but love!

3. Your mom is somewhat of an introvert. So, super public attention getting posts make me nervous. Like I'm-about-to-speak-in-front-of-all-of-these-people-while-standing-there-naked nervous. I literally broke out into a sweat that lasted for about 20 minutes AFTER I posted and didn't stop shaking for about an hour. Naturally, one would ask "Why the hell did you do it then?" Well, because I'm super excited and I do want everyone to know. I just don't want to be the one to tell them!

4. I know you're going to be just fine. I know that you're healthy and exactly where you're supposed to be. I know that the chances of something going wrong are extremely low. But, I also know that lots of mamas know those same things and their stories don't have a happy ending. That being said, please make sure the next sweat inducing announcement that I have to make is that my healthy baby girl has arrived. Kay?

As stressful as it was, I have to tell you that you already have a HUGE fan club! Lots of people are super excited to meet you and so excited for our little family to grow. I am feeling like the luckiest girl in the world tonight. I have the most amazing husband who is going to be such an amazing dad to you. I have the most tenderhearted, caring 11 year old on the planet who is ready to love you with everything that she's got. I have a little beautiful life that's the size of a lemon growing inside of me. AND...I have a GIANT support system that will help me every step of the way.

I. Am. Blessed.

Love,
Mom