Dear Nugget,
Three years ago today, your dad gave me the surprise of a lifetime when he asked me to marry him. Today I returned the favor and told him that you were on the way! I know it's not a contest between who shocked the other the most, but I'm pretty sure I won. That being said, I was pretty shocked myself, so actually, I think you win. Look at that, you barely exist and already you're a winner! Nugget - 1; Parents - 0.
Now, I don't want you to think that you are one of those "accident" kids, because that's simply not the case. Truth is, we were buying lottery tickets regularly, but with lower odds than the twenty and thirtysomethings and absolutely no winners for almost a year, we had kind of come to the realization that we probably weren't ever going to win. But, JUST before (and I mean JUST before) we stopped buying tickets, we hit the jackpot!
Over the last week, mom has been feeling super emotional. Like more than normal super emotional. I always tear up at sappy commercials and during the big reveal on Fixer Upper, but this week was out of control! I figured it was a really bad case of PMS and actually told Auntie that I thought I needed to get back on some happy pills, because mama was NOT happy! Then I looked at my little tracking app, realized that I was late and that my boobs hurt and immediately went and bought a pregnancy test.
The second I got home I opened that sucker up, followed the lovely directions while trying not to pee on myself, and sat right where I was and watched. It took about 10 seconds for that second line to pop up and there was nothing faint about it. I was definitely pregnant. And definitely freaking out. I immediately wanted to send a message to all of your "aunties" in our neverending group text, but I figured I better tell your dad first.
I was so nervous to tell him...I knew I was in shock and had no idea what his reaction would be! I heard him start the shower, but knew this couldn't wait. So I knocked on the door and asked him to come out. He sheepishly walked out with a "Uh oh...what did I do now?" look on his face. (Remember, mom's been super emotional leading up to this moment, so he was on high alert.) I pointed to the positive test that was on the counter and waited. His eyes got huge, a smile the size of Texas came across his face and he said "Baby? [pause] Baaaaaby?" in a pitch a couple of notches higher than normal.
Exhale. Lots of hugs. Lots of OMG's. Lots of emotions. Pure joy. Fear. Concern. This lasted all day. You were all I could think about. It's been 11 years since I've done this, so mom had lots of thoughts and questions running through her mind.
And, of course, I had to tell Auntie right away. There was NO WAY I was going to be able to grasp this and get through it without telling her ASAP. She was out of town, so I held off a few hours until I picked her up from the airport. When she asked me about my happy pill text and if I thought I just had PMS, I responded with a "Nope. Pretty sure I don't, because I'm pregnant." Drop the mike.
Gasp. Scream. Hug. Gasp. OMG's. Repeat. Pretty sure that your Auntie might come and steal you in the night. But, I'll know the first place to look if that happens.
Love,
Mom
