Dear Nugget,
Today was a good day. After weeks of worry about whether or not you were okay, Dad and I got to see your cute little self. Your little heart was beating at 174 beats per minute, which the doc said was just perfect. You were all curled up in there and for the first time I realized that this is really happening. We are bringing a new little life into this world and mama couldn't be happier! Based on your size of just over one inch, our due date has been declared as August 6, 2016. We're not sure yet what your actual birthday is, but we now have an official due date. So glad that you'll be arriving just before it gets hotter than hell. We'll be spending some quality time inside after you arrive!
I have to admit that I was SO relieved to see that you didn't have company in there! Holy shit were Mom and Dad both a little worried about THAT possibility. Okay, A LOT worried. Your grandma is a twin and mom is old, so the odds of having two babies go up. I'm pretty sure that I will be able to handle one little baby, but two would have been a stretch.
Hopefully, I'll be able to sleep better tonight now that I saw your little heart fluttering. What I really want is a big fat glass of wine, but looks like it's going to be Ginger Ale for this girl.
I'm so happy that you're okay, kiddo. So far, so good.
Love,
Mom
Tuesday, November 1, 2016
Wednesday, September 21, 2016
January 12, 2016
Dear Nugget,
So, I get asked how I'm feeling a lot. And, my answer is always "Fiiiiiiiiine." But you know what, I don't really feel fine. I feel like I've been hungover for the last three weeks!
By the way, your sister is going to FREAK OUT when she finds out about you! We love the show Rehab Addict (someday when I'm redecorating your room for the 400th time you'll understand this). Anyway, we were catching up on episodes tonight and at the very end of the last one, Nicole Curtis tells us to stay tuned for the next episode, where she will announce that she's adding to her family. Then you see a shot of a big pregnant belly and your sister FREAKED! "Oh my gosh! She's pregnant???? You have to find the next episode! We have to find out more! Oh my gosh!" She was so excited for Nicole...I cannot wait to tell her about you!
Love,
Mom
So, I get asked how I'm feeling a lot. And, my answer is always "Fiiiiiiiiine." But you know what, I don't really feel fine. I feel like I've been hungover for the last three weeks!
- I'm a little bit nauseous pretty much all the time.
- I'm so tired that I think I could lay down and take a nap at any point.
- I want to eat everything. All the time. And I never feel not hungry.
- Oh, but then I eat too much and I feel like I REALLY want to barf and have acid reflux.
- All I want to do is put on yoga pants and snuggle on the couch and binge watch Netflix.
By the way, your sister is going to FREAK OUT when she finds out about you! We love the show Rehab Addict (someday when I'm redecorating your room for the 400th time you'll understand this). Anyway, we were catching up on episodes tonight and at the very end of the last one, Nicole Curtis tells us to stay tuned for the next episode, where she will announce that she's adding to her family. Then you see a shot of a big pregnant belly and your sister FREAKED! "Oh my gosh! She's pregnant???? You have to find the next episode! We have to find out more! Oh my gosh!" She was so excited for Nicole...I cannot wait to tell her about you!
Love,
Mom
February 9, 2016
Dear Nugget,
Well, today we made the official announcement to the world about you! This whole having a baby in the land of social media is totally stressful! For some reason I was so nervous to hit that little blue Post button! Let me talk through some of the reasons why:
1. Even though I've seen you on the ultrasound, heard your little heartbeat and definitely feel you growing inside of me, it all still feels a little surreal! So...telling all of Facebook-land was kind of like admitting that this is really happening!
2. Although I like to think that most of the people that I'm friends with on Facebook are courteous individuals, a little part of me was afraid there'd be some comments that would hurt my over-emotional feelers. "Aren't you kind of old?" and "She'll be the same age as my grandchild!" and "Last time I saw you I thought maybe you were pregnant!" are not the kind of comments that this mama can handle at this point. Luckily, I felt nothing but love!
3. Your mom is somewhat of an introvert. So, super public attention getting posts make me nervous. Like I'm-about-to-speak-in-front-of-all-of-these-people-while-standing-there-naked nervous. I literally broke out into a sweat that lasted for about 20 minutes AFTER I posted and didn't stop shaking for about an hour. Naturally, one would ask "Why the hell did you do it then?" Well, because I'm super excited and I do want everyone to know. I just don't want to be the one to tell them!
4. I know you're going to be just fine. I know that you're healthy and exactly where you're supposed to be. I know that the chances of something going wrong are extremely low. But, I also know that lots of mamas know those same things and their stories don't have a happy ending. That being said, please make sure the next sweat inducing announcement that I have to make is that my healthy baby girl has arrived. Kay?
As stressful as it was, I have to tell you that you already have a HUGE fan club! Lots of people are super excited to meet you and so excited for our little family to grow. I am feeling like the luckiest girl in the world tonight. I have the most amazing husband who is going to be such an amazing dad to you. I have the most tenderhearted, caring 11 year old on the planet who is ready to love you with everything that she's got. I have a little beautiful life that's the size of a lemon growing inside of me. AND...I have a GIANT support system that will help me every step of the way.
I. Am. Blessed.
Love,
Mom
Well, today we made the official announcement to the world about you! This whole having a baby in the land of social media is totally stressful! For some reason I was so nervous to hit that little blue Post button! Let me talk through some of the reasons why:
1. Even though I've seen you on the ultrasound, heard your little heartbeat and definitely feel you growing inside of me, it all still feels a little surreal! So...telling all of Facebook-land was kind of like admitting that this is really happening!
2. Although I like to think that most of the people that I'm friends with on Facebook are courteous individuals, a little part of me was afraid there'd be some comments that would hurt my over-emotional feelers. "Aren't you kind of old?" and "She'll be the same age as my grandchild!" and "Last time I saw you I thought maybe you were pregnant!" are not the kind of comments that this mama can handle at this point. Luckily, I felt nothing but love!
3. Your mom is somewhat of an introvert. So, super public attention getting posts make me nervous. Like I'm-about-to-speak-in-front-of-all-of-these-people-while-standing-there-naked nervous. I literally broke out into a sweat that lasted for about 20 minutes AFTER I posted and didn't stop shaking for about an hour. Naturally, one would ask "Why the hell did you do it then?" Well, because I'm super excited and I do want everyone to know. I just don't want to be the one to tell them!
4. I know you're going to be just fine. I know that you're healthy and exactly where you're supposed to be. I know that the chances of something going wrong are extremely low. But, I also know that lots of mamas know those same things and their stories don't have a happy ending. That being said, please make sure the next sweat inducing announcement that I have to make is that my healthy baby girl has arrived. Kay?
As stressful as it was, I have to tell you that you already have a HUGE fan club! Lots of people are super excited to meet you and so excited for our little family to grow. I am feeling like the luckiest girl in the world tonight. I have the most amazing husband who is going to be such an amazing dad to you. I have the most tenderhearted, caring 11 year old on the planet who is ready to love you with everything that she's got. I have a little beautiful life that's the size of a lemon growing inside of me. AND...I have a GIANT support system that will help me every step of the way.
I. Am. Blessed.
Love,
Mom
Wednesday, July 20, 2016
December 6, 2016
Dear Nugget,
Three years ago today, your dad gave me the surprise of a lifetime when he asked me to marry him. Today I returned the favor and told him that you were on the way! I know it's not a contest between who shocked the other the most, but I'm pretty sure I won. That being said, I was pretty shocked myself, so actually, I think you win. Look at that, you barely exist and already you're a winner! Nugget - 1; Parents - 0.
Now, I don't want you to think that you are one of those "accident" kids, because that's simply not the case. Truth is, we were buying lottery tickets regularly, but with lower odds than the twenty and thirtysomethings and absolutely no winners for almost a year, we had kind of come to the realization that we probably weren't ever going to win. But, JUST before (and I mean JUST before) we stopped buying tickets, we hit the jackpot!
Over the last week, mom has been feeling super emotional. Like more than normal super emotional. I always tear up at sappy commercials and during the big reveal on Fixer Upper, but this week was out of control! I figured it was a really bad case of PMS and actually told Auntie that I thought I needed to get back on some happy pills, because mama was NOT happy! Then I looked at my little tracking app, realized that I was late and that my boobs hurt and immediately went and bought a pregnancy test.
The second I got home I opened that sucker up, followed the lovely directions while trying not to pee on myself, and sat right where I was and watched. It took about 10 seconds for that second line to pop up and there was nothing faint about it. I was definitely pregnant. And definitely freaking out. I immediately wanted to send a message to all of your "aunties" in our neverending group text, but I figured I better tell your dad first.
I was so nervous to tell him...I knew I was in shock and had no idea what his reaction would be! I heard him start the shower, but knew this couldn't wait. So I knocked on the door and asked him to come out. He sheepishly walked out with a "Uh oh...what did I do now?" look on his face. (Remember, mom's been super emotional leading up to this moment, so he was on high alert.) I pointed to the positive test that was on the counter and waited. His eyes got huge, a smile the size of Texas came across his face and he said "Baby? [pause] Baaaaaby?" in a pitch a couple of notches higher than normal.
Exhale. Lots of hugs. Lots of OMG's. Lots of emotions. Pure joy. Fear. Concern. This lasted all day. You were all I could think about. It's been 11 years since I've done this, so mom had lots of thoughts and questions running through her mind.
And, of course, I had to tell Auntie right away. There was NO WAY I was going to be able to grasp this and get through it without telling her ASAP. She was out of town, so I held off a few hours until I picked her up from the airport. When she asked me about my happy pill text and if I thought I just had PMS, I responded with a "Nope. Pretty sure I don't, because I'm pregnant." Drop the mike.
Gasp. Scream. Hug. Gasp. OMG's. Repeat. Pretty sure that your Auntie might come and steal you in the night. But, I'll know the first place to look if that happens.
Love,
Mom
Three years ago today, your dad gave me the surprise of a lifetime when he asked me to marry him. Today I returned the favor and told him that you were on the way! I know it's not a contest between who shocked the other the most, but I'm pretty sure I won. That being said, I was pretty shocked myself, so actually, I think you win. Look at that, you barely exist and already you're a winner! Nugget - 1; Parents - 0.
Now, I don't want you to think that you are one of those "accident" kids, because that's simply not the case. Truth is, we were buying lottery tickets regularly, but with lower odds than the twenty and thirtysomethings and absolutely no winners for almost a year, we had kind of come to the realization that we probably weren't ever going to win. But, JUST before (and I mean JUST before) we stopped buying tickets, we hit the jackpot!
Over the last week, mom has been feeling super emotional. Like more than normal super emotional. I always tear up at sappy commercials and during the big reveal on Fixer Upper, but this week was out of control! I figured it was a really bad case of PMS and actually told Auntie that I thought I needed to get back on some happy pills, because mama was NOT happy! Then I looked at my little tracking app, realized that I was late and that my boobs hurt and immediately went and bought a pregnancy test.
The second I got home I opened that sucker up, followed the lovely directions while trying not to pee on myself, and sat right where I was and watched. It took about 10 seconds for that second line to pop up and there was nothing faint about it. I was definitely pregnant. And definitely freaking out. I immediately wanted to send a message to all of your "aunties" in our neverending group text, but I figured I better tell your dad first.
I was so nervous to tell him...I knew I was in shock and had no idea what his reaction would be! I heard him start the shower, but knew this couldn't wait. So I knocked on the door and asked him to come out. He sheepishly walked out with a "Uh oh...what did I do now?" look on his face. (Remember, mom's been super emotional leading up to this moment, so he was on high alert.) I pointed to the positive test that was on the counter and waited. His eyes got huge, a smile the size of Texas came across his face and he said "Baby? [pause] Baaaaaby?" in a pitch a couple of notches higher than normal.
Exhale. Lots of hugs. Lots of OMG's. Lots of emotions. Pure joy. Fear. Concern. This lasted all day. You were all I could think about. It's been 11 years since I've done this, so mom had lots of thoughts and questions running through her mind.
And, of course, I had to tell Auntie right away. There was NO WAY I was going to be able to grasp this and get through it without telling her ASAP. She was out of town, so I held off a few hours until I picked her up from the airport. When she asked me about my happy pill text and if I thought I just had PMS, I responded with a "Nope. Pretty sure I don't, because I'm pregnant." Drop the mike.
Gasp. Scream. Hug. Gasp. OMG's. Repeat. Pretty sure that your Auntie might come and steal you in the night. But, I'll know the first place to look if that happens.
Love,
Mom
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